the worst thing that happened...?
9:23 a.m. - 29.05.2006

yesterday. j asked me what is the worst thing..saddest thing that had ever happened to me.i thought for a very long time. and. i couldn't really find one.

maybe the nearest would be that difficult period in p5-6. maybe it was something to do with puberty. getting a bit more aware of what this world was. the realities...and thinking a little bit too much..kind of set me into a mild depression. but after i managed to figure things out myself...it's been all right.:)

but. i still won't say it's something really bad...really terrible that has happened to me..:P

i tihnk something really bad...terrible...would be like wars..some natural disaster..some accident...losing someone..really, really, really close to me.

and. fortunately.i haven't. i'm lucky. i'm lucky. i suddenly realised.

so weird. u don't think much of your life and luck. then, when u really think hard...i come to think that my life's actually been pretty smooth in a way.

i get education. food. drinks. do things i want to do. i have a certain amount of freedom.

it seems that i have been living my life with all the short-sighter goals in mind. sometimes. pri, then sec, then jc, then uni. aim one. aim another. in terms of long term goals and aspirations. they all seem to be in a blur.

i feel that i'm aware of which direction i'm heading in..why i'm so busy. yet. at times. i can feel so lost.

unsure.

sometimes i'm unsure of what i'm really thinking about.

why is it that in my busybusy life. i can suddenly stop. and feel so empty. aimless.lost.

i'm not really sure.

there's something missing in my life.

and i can't figure it out.

that extra touch...:P don't know. got to go figure out.

and i still can't book the taiwan train tickets online. :(

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