thinkthinkthinkthink
11:10 a.m. - 12.03.2006

ha. i'm making decisions AGAIN. it's been 2 years of resting from major decision making. my brain feel stagnant. and now. filled up with all the info from different channels..different opinions...i'm going to make another life-changing decision .:)

i was wondering. what makes my decision making so long and laborious? the fact is it will change my life. what i'm going to do in future..what i CAN do with that degree in the future. will it restrict me? blahblah...why do i think so much? :(

i guess i don't want to regret. i want to be sure. be sure that this is what i'm going for. confirm it. confirm again. am i really sure that i've made this decision no because others have made it? people say it's good..people say no good...is there any truth? what kind of environment is this? is this what i'm ok with? hmm..:P and, what's the activities available? what is the difference between this school and that?:P haa...i have so many questions to consider. been thinking of them ever since i got that green slip of paper..with little letters...

ha. i've kind of made up my mind. yet i feel this sense of uncertainty.

because i don't know if this is what i want . really.

but then ..yet i can feel sure and secure about my choice.

there are varying views. and i try not to be resistant to any. i want to take it in and consider.

hais. haa..but once my decision is made and the application form submitted. i'll be relaxed and happy. yup.

now i just need to think though once more..a little bit more..and get the application sent out today. and let my remaining week be a little rest week..before i start another job again. must start looking...

okie..thinkthinkthinkthink....:)

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