i've had enough. stop it.
10:15 p.m. - 25.07.2006

ha. i decided. finally. yesterday. that i will give up little bear tuition. though he's my cousin.

but i've really had enough. yesterday was probably the last straw. i'm not going to think of him winning and getting his way. i'm going to let him destroy himself.

i feel like my blood pressure just surges up when i give him tuition.

what kind of stupid attitude he shows?!

i ask him to do work. he says "i don't want to do."
or "it's too hard. i don't want to do."

he doesn't do his work...and he gives some stupid attitude..coming up with all kinds of stupid excuses.

his character stinks. and i get irritated. i've tried talking to him time and again about his stinking character. but it doesn't work. he talks about going to heaven. forget about it. wonder what he learns in church.

i felt rather happy just talking bad about him with kor when i was on the way to marlaykneee house. it was shiok in a way. at least it helps me to let off some steam.

sometimes..i go back and all i can tell my mummy...she will jsut say..he's my cousin..blahblah..that's y need tuition teacher.at least kor understands...or..he's just a good person to fa1 xie4 with. ;)

i've tried. this past few months. i've tried. i've truly tried.

and it comes a time when i'm tired. tired of all the shouting. and trying so hard to get him to do just one pathetic piece of work. y? y should i? y should i make it so hard for myself?

can't he just do the stupid piece of work.

well. ok. if u don't want to study. i'll grant u your wish. and wish u all the worst.

yup. i start thinking. if he doesn't want to study. i'm not going to force him to. i'm gonig to give up on him. before i turn nasty. and just erupt. i feel like slapping him at times.

he says he wants to kill me. let it be.

he scolds all the vulgarities. but i'm always fine with it. cos i've always believe vulgarities reflect on the speaker..not the person the speaker is targetting. i don't care. verbal abuse me all u want.

i'm tired. sick of all the nonsense.be thankful that i'm willing to do my job till his ca2 ends. at least i'm not dumping him right away.

i've had enough. and i feel that i should be spending my time more effeciently on other students who want to learn. instead of giving up the sec1 girl, i'm giving up u.

i know u'll be happy.

and i will be happy too.

i've had enough. and i ask myself..why torture myself further? he's my cousin. so what? does that mean i'm going to put myself through so much stress?! i have my own life. just get away from me. i've had enough of your nonsense. just go away.

i've decided. and it's my FINAL decision.:|

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