sadness tugging...:(
10:03 p.m. - 21.07.2008

so today was the very last day. and hais. i'm starting to miss the place.

i'm an emo person. but i tend to not show it in life.. somehow. so i felt sad. but i didn't cry.

somehow. i've realised...as i grew up..that there's many kinds of sadness..

there used to be the one when u really cried it all out....or the silent sobbing as i watched the sadsad movies./shows:P

then today..it was this faint..little sadness that kept tugging at my heart...as i sat the bus. it felt surreal.hm. it's like an accomplishment. i felt a bit empty. like all had come to an end. i felt. lost.

it was a way of life i had gotten used to. gotten comfortable with the pple around. it was a really nice environment. that i really love. :)

hais. but well.

soon i'll be going on to another stage of my life.

i'll be going out to a foreign country alone. and i'll hav to learn to live independently. really independently. i'm excited.

but as usual. i can't put things behind me so easily. and i'm a sentimental kid:Phaaa

well. so. the sadness will tug. it will tug silently. consistently at the heart. until one day. maybe it slowly subsides.

and new happiness and warmth engulfs the heart again.

sadness fades into a corner. quietly. slowly tugging. still.

and i walk on. with sadness.

tugging. tugging. tugging.

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