plans. losses.
3:02 p.m. - 05.02.2006

ha. i've been busy trying to plan a taiwan trip to go with my cousin, mummy and auntie. not sure if my bro and daddy are going to go..:P haa..but i seriously love planning and i guess.it's the fact that you can have things your way. do things at your own pace. :) i like that feeling of control..i guess...and the whole excitement of being able to go where you want....do what you want...:)

i hope my plans will actually take flight.:) haa...i don't care. i'm stubborn. i've got to make it work...then i'm trying to scrimp and save as much as possible..:) calculated with my other friend at work...if we eat the $2 food everyday...we can use only 1 $10 note finish.:) good.:) but greedy me can't resist food...i guess...so $10 will be insufficient. :P

work has been ok. :) i'm happy with it.:) but then. i think i'm beginning to kind of hear of some of the office politics..:P or rather little internal conflicts..or maybe miscommunication..i don't know...i think the company seems better than it is..cos i'm a temporary...and hmm..hello..hello..idealistic me..where can i find a company with no office politics?

but i'll just be ignorant. though i can kind of sense it...hm...

it's been about one month with work. and i still can't feel really comfortable with 'adults'...:P it's still a bit scary. awakward at times..cos..i just don't feel at the same level with them...when i talk to them. i feel small. ignorant. ha.

maybe it won't be the same when i go get a perm job after uni(hopefully i can go uni) in future..?:P because i'll be older then..hopefully more mature? haa...

oh yup. our bicycle got stolen. it's old. a little rusty. why do people still want to steal my bicycle?! :| and well...i just accepted the fact. it's quite surprising..how i could accept that truth so fast. i just didn't think much of it. i just kind of just accepted it..thought "ok. i've got no bicycle now." but i use it quite often. more often now..to ride to ecp...and go library..go parkway..blah.

it's funny. i could just get over the lost so fast. i keep all kinds of junk..simply because they have memories.big and small...i keep junk. and if i lose these junk, i'll be sad. sad for a few days. i try to get over it. but i will keep thinking of it. and i wonder if i've mastered the art of going on with losses.

maybe? i remembered how i could feel so heart broken when i lost something. it could be something as simple as an eraser..pencil...

but then. maybe i've become more harderned up? losses happen. and i've learnt how to cope with them.

but i'm not sure if i can cope with major losses in future.

i wonder.

maybe i can't. i'm not really sure.

if i can cry so easily for a tv character's loss and helplessness...can i cope with my own losses?

maybe not? i'm not sure.

HOPE THAT PERSON WHO TOOK MY BICYCLE RETURNS IT. -_-

but i think it'll never return.

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