trust me.
1:02 p.m. - 23.05.2006

ha.:) working has really been an eyeopener for me. :)

people aren't that simple. or rather situations aren't so simple.there are so many complex ways of reacting to situations.

guess in a way we've been backstabbed...okie.i guess i don't consider it to be very serious backstabbing. but still a little blood shed.

B and i helped her to do stuff in our free time. and in the end when the boss realised she was so behind time..not on schedule....she blamed it on us...saying we were slow.

i don't know if it's true. but i guess it's true. B told me. cos i wasn't present when it happened. but i feel that B isn't bluffing. and connected with how we don't need to help her out now in our break time...and someone else is roped in to do the work...i think it somehow all links together.

also with the kind of atmosphere that surrounds her and B when they are in the same place. there's a kind of animosity. is animosity the correct word.

i remind myself that i only heard from one party. and is it okay to trust just one person's word? but if i feel that he is telling the truth...that judging from the kind of person he is...he won't lie about such things.

i guess so. i'm an esfj..so i tend to go with how i feel. like right now..when i meet new pple at work...i use how i feel to judge a person. the kind of attitude a person exudes. and what i feel when interacting with another person.

i use my feelings. more than my logical thinking to decide my actions..:P eh,...not really..impt decisions..i use logical thinking too...but when logical thinking can't give me answers..i seek answers by identifying how i feel..:)

and if i feel that someone is worthy of my trust. i guess i will trust. and i hope that my trust is not betrayed. i hope.

the working world. is a complicated world. esp when adults come into the pic. when your own ricebowl comes into the pic. when survival comes into the picture.

i realised. that it's not a game anymore. it's more of a battle. each for its own? when that crucial moment comes...? but where's the integrity and honesty? can't u just admit that u're the one whose to blame? what kind of a person are u?

i'm not sure. all of a sudden. cos i thought she was okay. and then there's all this pushing of the blame to other people. hais. how can people do their job fast....when some things cannot be found in the first place? :P

nevermind.

just hope u meet nice people in future.i believe it's possible.(naive thought...:|) haa..with lots of luck?

hmm.but it's nice to ba able to believe so. and not too wrong too...:) haa...at least it keeps me happy and optimistic.:) at least not all the people at the workplace are like this.

and realised...at first..all seems calm..and i'm slowing seeing the cracks in between. coming to understand what kind of a company and management it has...it's not surprising..that people don't stay long there..i guess part-timer still okay. but full-time...hmm...staff benefits. welfare. hmmm...the kind of culture and morale.

wonder what the ones up there are doing...wodner if they ever bothered to hear what those working on the ground have to say. it doesn't seem so.

hais. :P

but i'm still happy to work. just that i've realised so many things. learnt.

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