i don't belong to school anymore
10:17 a.m. - 04.01.2006
it certainly feels weird not going to school. :(
i miss school. the fun part. haa...minus all those tests...and exams..:P the lessons aren't that bad..some are fun...
haa..it's really scary thinking of how life will be like in the future. i'm so unsure..unconfirmed about what i really want to do in future.and then ..there's only uni(if i get into one) and i have to go out and face this big world.
facing a bit of the big world doing my job at robinsons. can't really get used to it. i still feel like a little kid. :P and more comfortable wtih people around my age..:P haa..just like in sch when people are about your age. :P
why? why don't i feel 'adult'? haa...i guess ..if i get into uni...i will try to do many things that i really like to do....cos i guess when it's out to work...i will prob never realy get the opportunities again,...to really enjoy...and be idealistic...be so naive...
reality seems so daunting. and. i want to return to school ...haabut i think i'll feel out..even if i just go back to visit on a normal school day...:P cos i don't belong to school anymore. i don't.
maybe everyone was once. young.innocent.ignorant.naive.scared? ha. then you get out into that bigbigbig 'adult' working world. you get hardened up. you become 'smarter'.older.wiser?not so scared anymore. you go about your job everyday...looking forward to breaks..lunch..going home. your life is a monotonous note. you're tired. you just go on with life...hmm..i hope my job isn't like that..haaa...:D
hm. realised that sales isn't for me..i began to find it boring from the 2nd day onwards. and i don't really treat clothes very nicely..haa..:D had to be extra careful..:Pand...don't know..just feel that there isn't a certain purpose in my job...a bit aimless...hm...long term job....i don't think i will stay in such a job..haa..
hais..so..got 3 days break now..must go find another job..cos robinsons contract ends on 10th jan. :P okok..shall go call up...:) guess i'll just take any job..that is not sales..:) go try other areas.:)
hais. happy new year to everyone!:) hopefully 2006 turns out great for everyone.:)