be with me. :)
11:13 a.m. - 24.09.2005

yays. :) i finally watched BE WITH ME. :) waited so long. been eyeing it ever since i read about it in the newspapers.:) rather nice.:)

makes me think. i like. it's like i keep thinking about it after the show. thinking about it this morning. :) i think that's what i call a good movie. movies which you keep going back to..pondering.:)

these's a certain quote in the movie. but i can't remember exactly...it's something like this...

Love disappears when we don't understand what it means.

hm. that line just struck me. :) hm.

there was this part of the movie about this security guard secretly in love with this office girl. he finally penned down his admiration and love for her.

he was happy. excited.

he was going to send the letter to that lady.

he was.

but sadly. he was killed when another person..who was from another part of the movie..(there are 3 main stories in the movie that are somehow linked) decided to take her life, jumping down and landing on that security guard.

the love letter never got send.

never.

after how many hours and days and nights painstakingly piecing the whole letter together.

sad.

i hate regrets. i hate this feeling of regret. i think it's a terrible feeling. to know that you could have succeeded in doing so but didn't because you procrastinated. you let off opportunities.

hais.

and, haha. i guess i'm one who can cry easily when watching shows. okie. it's obvius. maybe that we cry out of sadness for the character. but..thinking and dwelling deeper into the question of 'why do i cry?'...i think it's the sadness from regret....

okies. maybe not all crying is cos of regret. but sometimes i think i cry for the characters' regret. regret. regret.

hm. regret somehow makes you have this sense of yi2 han4....it's like you could have done something...or, maybe the outcome would have been happier. could. if we had done something.:) hm.

yup. ha. so i must work hard and not regret! i tell myself if i've placed in my 100%..i will not regret. i will buy myself lots of chocs after As to reward myself. actually. hm. i wonder if i should replace that with a whole box of gelato.:) go home and just finish it all up after As.:) haa....:D yay!!!! i get so excited ..thinking that after-As is once again nearer..with the ending of prelims!:D wohoo~~!

ha.oh. yesterday went out with denise to watch the movie. we tried the fried mars.:) yay! been eyeing that too after it came out on sunday plus. it's okay. nice with the vanilla ice cream . but...i won't eat too much of that. fatty and i tihnk the caramel....you'll feel sick if you eat too much. but once in a while indulgence is nice.:D

we went to this art gallery..the art pieces suppose to be on sale. haa..it's in taka...didn't know there was an art gallery. i tihnk going out with different people..you get to learn and experience lots of different things.:D exxciting!:) hm . really expensive..realised the cheapest i saw was 9000 over singapore dollars. hm.

really liked this 'chinatown' painting. it's some abstract art...lotsd of streaks of red paint..with streaks ofblack...orange....this whole..seemingly messy pieace of painting. but in that mess..there's this certain order to it. i could see roaws of house...those shophouses kind of thing.:) nice. then, saw another abstract painting....was some forest...i think..:) then..there was like this forbidden city ..with 2 red guards...:) again..lots of streaks..green..yellow..brown..black...all in one painting...seemingly messy..but actually there's a certain order.:)

realised i like those luan4 zhong1 you3 xu4 kind of art. actually other things...too..i guess. :) i like things with a unique flavour. not too orderly. not too clean and tidy. i just want a little mess. a little. a little to add some flavour to things.:) hm. that's why i like taiwan's nite markets.:)

sometimes singapore seems too orderly for me. i just wished there was a little spontaniety. is that how to spell it?

i little mess. just like my room. hm. but it becomes a big mess esp when schol gets too busy. but i do clear it up once in a blue moon. haa...but. still there are bits of mess.:D ha. but i realised i find my things easier when things are messy rather than when i purposely place them in specific places.:)

lahlah. i'm really bored. somehow. it's like i don't really want to get back to study now. i need to get myself back into study mood soon..by next week..next week i'm going to start my intensive chemistry practice. :) hais. i'll try my best for chem.

yup. so, today. i better get myself packing my files and room again. tomorrow will be planning time schedule. get my whole frame of mine psyched up for another run! yeah! this time it's the peak! i'll reach the top of the mountain soon...and after that...i can have a slide down...:D and enjoy. :) yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

be with me. even just for a short while. i'll be happy. i'll be happy. that i once had it all. :)

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