all is lost.
1:04 p.m. - 28.11.2006

studying for my sw paper later:P

trying to stuff policies and knowledge in. all these policies and stuff kind of turn me off this otherwise logical, meaningful mod. but then. i don't really agree with some of the code of ethics. haa..

hais. and i'm kind of sick of repeating the stuff over and over again to get it into my head.

i'm trying to feel positive and happy yet. i can't truly feel entirely at ease. and happy. it's weird. cos i thought a change in mindset and thoughts .could. hopefully help me.

but it seems like it doesn't work at times.

why?

and i've got to keep myself motivated. :)

i can do it :)
i've gone through more stressful times than this.
and i did get through it.

i've just got to persevere.

so weird. then i will start thinking back at times. memories. during such stressful times. i always. never fail to think back.....u know. i think memories keep me alive. it's nice looking back. yet. sometimes i can't help feeling this little tinge of sadness that some things can never be the same again. some memories . will really just remain memories.

and there isn't anything i can really do .

memories are nice. :) i won't dwell on them. i just remember them. it's nice to remember. so nice that i can remember.

and when i slowly grow older and realise that some memories fade slowly...it is a reminder of the passing time. and that nothing remains. nothing.

no matter how hard u can try to get it back. how hard u can try to keep it. all is futile.

and only time succeeds.

time triumphs.

and all is lost. against the battle of time.

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