1st march
3:15 p.m. - 25.02.2006

reality strikes hard on 1st march.

i'm thinking of all the possible worst-case scenarios i can ever get.

i'll have all my back-up plans.

because i have to admit that this is a battle that i have simply no confidence in.

don't think that all in the same boat can reach the other side together.

i've got to be mentally prepared.

and i am. slowly psyching myself up.

to face whatever i have to. and must face.

don't tell me that all will be fine.

because i know. miracles can't happen all the time.

why should it now? and why for me?

i just want myself to know.

that i may be fine. i may not be fine.

but no matter what it is, i still have choices. it's not the end.

i'll face it. this wednesday.

and i'm almost ready.

just give me some time.

thanks.

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